I shared that it caused me to think about my relationships, but what I didn't share was the ability to find release. Release is different from healing for me.Release from relationships I tried to salvage, because I wanted them. The other party obviously did not, but the laughter and memories far outweighed the differences in my mind. I shared my heart, the others were closed and short. Unanswered messages, holiday and birthday greetings, even email. I'm not going to lie, it hurt.
Thankfully the heart has the ability to heal and husbands bring home things given to them at work, which they skimmed, didn't really read and think it may be more their wives style of reading.
What I know is that there are a two people in my life, outside of my family, I can count on always and will fight for and send birthday greetings on the right (30 December) and wrong days (10 or 12 & never 4, of the same month) until time will no longer allow. And I know there are those who I do not see often or talk to as much as I wish, but I'd be a bit more afraid show all the ugly. Because snips and snaps and most certainly a recipe; it works. But the full length drama and albums...I've done that and it doesn't always work. Thus: a Reason or a Season, not a Lifetime. Guess what? That's ok.
As I find myself a year and a half in a new town and community I believe I have another of these relationships forming. My longest and deepest friendship is growing new branches and it is because the roots are deep and the soil is rich. I find myself so very thankful.
I really, really like my kitchen and after years of slowly making purchases and watching for dream items that had been touched by my pal Clearance, it's nearly complete. Tomorrow my new cassis skillet should arrive. I keep trying to win one from the pioneer woman, but I've given up. What do you try to win from her?
I pack lunches each day. Do you?
The Feed Zone, I have not abandoned thee, I just keep cooking recipes we already love and playing with others. Like the rice and banana pancakes I made this morning.
1 over flowing cup of cooked brown rice (left over from dinner, usually)
1 t xanthan gum
2 t mixed baking spices
4 T tapioca flour
splash of vanilla, not imitation, but the real deal
big or bigger glug of coconut milk until it has batter consistency
Put it all in food processor and mix until smooth. Heat skillet well before making pancakes. I use coconut oil on the pan. Best to let cook for much longer than normal pancakes before trying to flip. Top with coconut spread, banana slices and unsweetened coconut flakes. I bet almond butter would be yummy on top too or even a bit in the batter.